wanna juz say thank you to someone.
coz someone gonna hav to work 9 days in a row by taking this sunday shift.
thanks. :)
Friday, February 27, 2004
The eternity of stars, planets and the moon in the river of time.......
shrine:"oh! bring a telescope here! hee...can see saturn and jupiter very well and other stars which norm fade out in singapore's brite city lites and concrete jungle....it's so beautiful...even @ one pm here, the moon can still be seen! in fact hor....now 4 pm...still can see moon leh...i think it's there all the time...just that we never noticed it. "
The moon, planets and stars are always there in the sky. Even in Singapore, dun see them in the sky doesn't mean that they are not there. Like many things in life, they are juz covered up by the many highrises and pollution. When the clouds disperses and storm lifts, you will see them. Some friends will stick with you in times of trouble and share with you your happiness. Sometimes they seems so far away and dun seems to be in your daily life but you still know they do care. Better treasure them before you lost them along the river of time. Juz a short encounter, we met and left a lot of memories along the river banks.
"Life is both sad and solemn. We are let into a wonderful world, we meet one another here, greet each other and wander together for a brief time. Then we lost each other and disappear as suddenly and unreasonably as we arrived." ~~ Jostein Gaarder in Sophie's world
shrine:"oh! bring a telescope here! hee...can see saturn and jupiter very well and other stars which norm fade out in singapore's brite city lites and concrete jungle....it's so beautiful...even @ one pm here, the moon can still be seen! in fact hor....now 4 pm...still can see moon leh...i think it's there all the time...just that we never noticed it. "
The moon, planets and stars are always there in the sky. Even in Singapore, dun see them in the sky doesn't mean that they are not there. Like many things in life, they are juz covered up by the many highrises and pollution. When the clouds disperses and storm lifts, you will see them. Some friends will stick with you in times of trouble and share with you your happiness. Sometimes they seems so far away and dun seems to be in your daily life but you still know they do care. Better treasure them before you lost them along the river of time. Juz a short encounter, we met and left a lot of memories along the river banks.
"Life is both sad and solemn. We are let into a wonderful world, we meet one another here, greet each other and wander together for a brief time. Then we lost each other and disappear as suddenly and unreasonably as we arrived." ~~ Jostein Gaarder in Sophie's world
李安导演和父亲的话别 在海葬那一刻
浪很静，落日余辉很美。"爸，海的那一边就是台南故乡，这里常有海豚来玩，风景很优美，你放心地走吧。”父亲十年前赠送的啸依然吹奏着《秋水伊人》。。。
那么细腻地男人，是不是让人心动？
那么细腻地男人，是不是让人心动？
Wednesday, February 25, 2004
Heavy downpour...
the closer you are to someone, the more you could be asking of tat someone.
dissappointed and was so down today, didn't really koe wat i was doing.
haiz... pycho myself with a positive attitude to work today, but the moment i step into the place, a downpour began in my heart. so heavy and grey tat i almost couldn't tink properly.
gonna make plans for next mth leave to motivate myself. Hong Kong is out for will be goin in oct.
Perth? maybe ba?
the closer you are to someone, the more you could be asking of tat someone.
dissappointed and was so down today, didn't really koe wat i was doing.
haiz... pycho myself with a positive attitude to work today, but the moment i step into the place, a downpour began in my heart. so heavy and grey tat i almost couldn't tink properly.
gonna make plans for next mth leave to motivate myself. Hong Kong is out for will be goin in oct.
Perth? maybe ba?
Tuesday, February 24, 2004
who's can make me smile or cry??
can someone juz enlighten mi as to how to fill this white form every time of the year?
could i juz fill that i will be responsible for my own happiness and saddness?
i m the key operator for my life. u guys (i guess if u care enuff to read this page) will be automatically become the influencing factors as to how my performance grade will be. A, B, C, D?? anyway it's my life.
chatted with di last nite. reminded mi of someone i miss but couldn't call to say hi .....
can someone juz enlighten mi as to how to fill this white form every time of the year?
could i juz fill that i will be responsible for my own happiness and saddness?
i m the key operator for my life. u guys (i guess if u care enuff to read this page) will be automatically become the influencing factors as to how my performance grade will be. A, B, C, D?? anyway it's my life.
chatted with di last nite. reminded mi of someone i miss but couldn't call to say hi .....
Saturday, February 21, 2004
Mushrooms mushrooms mushrooms
anyone will envy me. such a blissful day. woke up at 9am. ate toast with eggs. (done half boiled minus the avian flu plus pepper and soya sauce). read the papers n then a few pages of [Sophie world] ps. a good read if u like philosophy.
sms a few pple i loved juz to say hi and how r u. then called civil servant club to register for the star grazing thing in march. hahaa almost forgot i used to go gaga over astronomy. been overloaded with work and other stuff tat i gradually lost touch with what i used to enjoy doing.
Packed my stuff again and was listening to all the old cds tat has gathered dust in the bottom of my drawers. realise i still love them. :) good old songs.
ahhhaa cooked lunch. mushrooms in oyster sauce and rice. yummy yummy.
went shopping at cityhall, brought khaki pants, white tee, biotherm gloss no.30, source therapy spa concentrate, toner, loreal shampoo, aquasource oligo-therma gel, wow wat a list. :)) will hate to see next mth bills. :((( should hav passed all cards to hoff as she suggested. i promise to do so next mth. :p (3 fingers)
Well, i tink i m happy today n tat's good. ah lee said sometimes one does get unhappy for no apparent reason, but we shouldn't let it bother us for too long. so i guess i gonna snap out of it pretty soon coz i finally hav to face the fact tat no one's gonna cry with me no matter how much i wish they will.
anyone will envy me. such a blissful day. woke up at 9am. ate toast with eggs. (done half boiled minus the avian flu plus pepper and soya sauce). read the papers n then a few pages of [Sophie world] ps. a good read if u like philosophy.
sms a few pple i loved juz to say hi and how r u. then called civil servant club to register for the star grazing thing in march. hahaa almost forgot i used to go gaga over astronomy. been overloaded with work and other stuff tat i gradually lost touch with what i used to enjoy doing.
Packed my stuff again and was listening to all the old cds tat has gathered dust in the bottom of my drawers. realise i still love them. :) good old songs.
ahhhaa cooked lunch. mushrooms in oyster sauce and rice. yummy yummy.
went shopping at cityhall, brought khaki pants, white tee, biotherm gloss no.30, source therapy spa concentrate, toner, loreal shampoo, aquasource oligo-therma gel, wow wat a list. :)) will hate to see next mth bills. :((( should hav passed all cards to hoff as she suggested. i promise to do so next mth. :p (3 fingers)
Well, i tink i m happy today n tat's good. ah lee said sometimes one does get unhappy for no apparent reason, but we shouldn't let it bother us for too long. so i guess i gonna snap out of it pretty soon coz i finally hav to face the fact tat no one's gonna cry with me no matter how much i wish they will.
Running on Depressed mode
did a few online depression quiz and got the same depressing conclusion tat i might be suffering from moderate to severe depression. recommended to see a doctor even though i may not feel motivated to do so.
hey hey, didn't really trust these online quiz as the questions they ask seems so general tat i think everyone in the lab will probably be classified under the depressed group. as i always joked, i m always running on depressed mode. ps. for non-lab readers: tat's a comment we put for chemistries tat we rerun in decreased mode for testing in the lab.
gonna sleep early, tat's a symptom for depression if u sleep too little or sleep too much. betta get some quality sleep b4 i really turned crazy.
did a few online depression quiz and got the same depressing conclusion tat i might be suffering from moderate to severe depression. recommended to see a doctor even though i may not feel motivated to do so.
hey hey, didn't really trust these online quiz as the questions they ask seems so general tat i think everyone in the lab will probably be classified under the depressed group. as i always joked, i m always running on depressed mode. ps. for non-lab readers: tat's a comment we put for chemistries tat we rerun in decreased mode for testing in the lab.
gonna sleep early, tat's a symptom for depression if u sleep too little or sleep too much. betta get some quality sleep b4 i really turned crazy.
juz received a call from sabi. sounded quite lonely and sianz. didn't koe how to cheer her up. :(
tot goin to perth for studies should be something exciting. guess the excitment is there but the loneliness is probably too much to bear at the beginning. all the new things to accept and new pple to get to koe. and got the hard cold boring studies to worry.
but i guess everthing gonna b fine for her soon, brave and smart gal. gonna go shopping for SHE cd to send to perth tmr. at least won't feel so helpless here doin nothing. :)
tot goin to perth for studies should be something exciting. guess the excitment is there but the loneliness is probably too much to bear at the beginning. all the new things to accept and new pple to get to koe. and got the hard cold boring studies to worry.
but i guess everthing gonna b fine for her soon, brave and smart gal. gonna go shopping for SHE cd to send to perth tmr. at least won't feel so helpless here doin nothing. :)
Friday, February 20, 2004
Sense of loneliness ~ Feel Van Gogh's
[' It looks very different here today, but beautiful in its own way, for instance, the grounds near the Rhine railway station: in the foreground, the cinder path with the poplars, which are beginning to lose their leaves; then the ditch full of duckweed, with a high bank covered with faded grass and rushes; then the grey or brown-gray soil of spaded potato fields, or plots planted with greenish purple-red cabbage, here and there the very fresh green of newly sprouted autumn weeds above which rise bean stalks with faded stems and the reddish or green or black bean pods; behind this stretch of ground, the red-rusted or black rails in yellow sand; here and there stacks of old timber - heaps of coal - discarded railway carriages; higher up to the right, a few roofs and the freight depot - to the left a far-reaching view of the damp green meadows, shut off far away at the horizon by a greyish streak, in which one can still distinguish trees, red roofs and black factory chimneys. Above it, a somewhat yellowish yet grey sky, very chilly and wintry, hanging low; there are occasional bursts of rain, and many hungry crows are flying around. Still, a great deal of light falls on everything; It shows even more when a few little figures in blue or white smocks move over the ground, so that shoulders and heads catch the light.
I think, however, that in Paris everything probably looks much cleaner and less chilly. For the chilliness even penetrates the house, and when one lights a pipe, it seems damp from the drizzling rain. But it is very beautiful.
But it's on days like this that one would like to go and see some friend or would like a friend to come to the house; and it's on days like this that one has an empty feeling when one can go nowhere and nobody comes. But it's then that I feel how much the work means to me, how it gives tone to life, apart from approval or disapproval; and on days which would otherwise make one melancholy, one is glad to have a will.' ]
[' It looks very different here today, but beautiful in its own way, for instance, the grounds near the Rhine railway station: in the foreground, the cinder path with the poplars, which are beginning to lose their leaves; then the ditch full of duckweed, with a high bank covered with faded grass and rushes; then the grey or brown-gray soil of spaded potato fields, or plots planted with greenish purple-red cabbage, here and there the very fresh green of newly sprouted autumn weeds above which rise bean stalks with faded stems and the reddish or green or black bean pods; behind this stretch of ground, the red-rusted or black rails in yellow sand; here and there stacks of old timber - heaps of coal - discarded railway carriages; higher up to the right, a few roofs and the freight depot - to the left a far-reaching view of the damp green meadows, shut off far away at the horizon by a greyish streak, in which one can still distinguish trees, red roofs and black factory chimneys. Above it, a somewhat yellowish yet grey sky, very chilly and wintry, hanging low; there are occasional bursts of rain, and many hungry crows are flying around. Still, a great deal of light falls on everything; It shows even more when a few little figures in blue or white smocks move over the ground, so that shoulders and heads catch the light.
I think, however, that in Paris everything probably looks much cleaner and less chilly. For the chilliness even penetrates the house, and when one lights a pipe, it seems damp from the drizzling rain. But it is very beautiful.
But it's on days like this that one would like to go and see some friend or would like a friend to come to the house; and it's on days like this that one has an empty feeling when one can go nowhere and nobody comes. But it's then that I feel how much the work means to me, how it gives tone to life, apart from approval or disapproval; and on days which would otherwise make one melancholy, one is glad to have a will.' ]
Thursday, February 19, 2004
shades of greys and blacks
been feeling beri bad this few weeks, continuously in different shades of greys and blacks.... (but isn't greys shades of black? ahaaa) Wondering why? low self esteem? low moral at work? lost interest in work? too lonely? or juz simply too tired. dun hav the answers.
hav this remote idea of living behind someone's shadow.
dun not koe y. stupid y i cannot juz b an individual. HATE it. :(
been feeling beri bad this few weeks, continuously in different shades of greys and blacks.... (but isn't greys shades of black? ahaaa) Wondering why? low self esteem? low moral at work? lost interest in work? too lonely? or juz simply too tired. dun hav the answers.
hav this remote idea of living behind someone's shadow.
dun not koe y. stupid y i cannot juz b an individual. HATE it. :(
Someone special...
on leave for a few days. was chatting wit ee n hs on msn earlier. talked abt aa n other stuff. preti boring day here, sky's grey and cloudy. mood ok ba. manage to clear the mountain on my table that has been threatening to start a land slide.
doin the same things for almost 10 years certainly is an amazing thing. and the fact tat i m still doin it is incredible. sometimes i wan to puke juz hearing ani thing related to it. does the same theory applied to relationships, can a relationship with a loved one last 10 years? i wish i can answer on tat... ...
some must tink it's silly to stick with someone whom i didn't even talk to for more than 30 mins add together; yet there's this funni special bond. Crazy and childish, some would definitely say, but ... ... it's a strange feeling to feel attached to this someone and this special group of friends, ahem u koe who u r. strange but it feels good so i tink it cannot be bad. :)
on leave for a few days. was chatting wit ee n hs on msn earlier. talked abt aa n other stuff. preti boring day here, sky's grey and cloudy. mood ok ba. manage to clear the mountain on my table that has been threatening to start a land slide.
doin the same things for almost 10 years certainly is an amazing thing. and the fact tat i m still doin it is incredible. sometimes i wan to puke juz hearing ani thing related to it. does the same theory applied to relationships, can a relationship with a loved one last 10 years? i wish i can answer on tat... ...
some must tink it's silly to stick with someone whom i didn't even talk to for more than 30 mins add together; yet there's this funni special bond. Crazy and childish, some would definitely say, but ... ... it's a strange feeling to feel attached to this someone and this special group of friends, ahem u koe who u r. strange but it feels good so i tink it cannot be bad. :)
Wednesday, February 18, 2004
hahaa yes i m still alive after all this while. and finally got my own url and tat's like waiting for 5 years b4 it's actually became a fact. always too lazy to put my ideas into action. but tat's me.
seen gila's fotos on her blog. seems so nice to be there at fremantle and most importantly away from work.
maybe maybe will go there in april. i said maybe maybe coz tat's moi style. :p always uncertain and last min.
seen gila's fotos on her blog. seems so nice to be there at fremantle and most importantly away from work.
maybe maybe will go there in april. i said maybe maybe coz tat's moi style. :p always uncertain and last min.
Tuesday, February 17, 2004
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